oh- aphrodisiac & her lewd fantasies;

cold shards of a heartbreak

2012-01-06T10:50:00.000-08:00

They always say that once a mirror has been shattered, its impossible to fix it back, even with the finest craftsmen, it'll never be flawless again. Uneventful happenings shrouding my life are like parasites, feeding on my sorrow, one after another, like a plague which I have no cure to.

The break-up left me barely alive, cleaning what's left of my broken heart. My stubborn nature and the adamant will to survive left me brushing my scraped knees, fighting to get up again. Then he came back like a silent sandstorm, but of course,,, never an inch of me has regretted his action. I missed him... beyond how words can describe.

Our fingers hungered for the affection that once kept us together, hearts outstretched with healing wings embracing every second of each other's presence. Tears that fell like rain.... That day, i realized i have never really moved on, all but a strong facade. Is this some form of black magic? The power that he wields over me? I wonder.

I expected things not to be the same again, his scent, the way he looks at me all seem like a passing dream now. What can i do to salvage something that's begging to be saved, yet bearing near zero possibility of hope? I did a stupid thing, the grown-ups call it "guilty pleasure that shouldn't be told" the fatal 3p. I don't deny, i didn't enjoy it. However, I neither detest nor feel upset by it. I don't know if it was a test by my really bitchy sub-concious mind, but... the results were just as I expected, even if I didn't want my prediction to come true.

The way he held her, I could almost feel the hunger he had buried inside. Jealousy wasn't the issue there. All i felt was... What he needs right now isn't me, just as i thought it was, (hopefully), but a companion. It can be anybody. Im neither special nor better in any way, just an ordinary girl hopelessly in love with a boy who loves her by breaking her heart. over and over, like a mindless replay.

I am such a masochist. And a traveller without a map. A difficult math test with no solutions. I need help. yet none can be given except from myself.

Fuck this shit. i wish love was just love.

she wouldn't post about love; not ever again.

2011-11-28T18:51:00.001-08:00

i know i said it'd be my last post about him. yet all my flair for words struggled to stop, abandoning the wreck i am now. not a single word wanted to be told, not for anything but him. this boy, he's the sun of my planet that solely orbits. my words... they feared to be chosen to describe him for his beauty far surpassed what words could paint.

so tears broke free from the prison in my mind last night. how could they not? after so long, he finally spoke. monosyllabic words. was i wrong? to believe I was still existent in his mind, playing with his heart strings like how he does mine. What words are there to describe such a love?

Irony tore me apart. even if the sands of time could flow backwards, the decision i made perhaps could be delayed... but never avoided. I hate how I bestow him with such immense power over all entities of my life. How much I love him. All the fragments of our memories are scattered across all places, evoking chaos within my broken heart with every few steps I take. How possible is it to heal when he was what kept me alive?\

I am such a monster. but he, is epiphany of love.

all these fucked up assignments

2011-11-10T00:08:00.001-08:00

HELP ME!!! im drowning in my assignments. its taking me forever to finish writing Sweet Cyanide, my next erotic essay! its so short only. I havent even reach 20% what the fuck :(
but this essay is a little morbid. i've been watching too much gore and rape and all.

What is the world coming to! nooooo

100509

2011-10-19T08:09:00.000-07:00

The very last post i will write about you.

Like my every other letter, I start with; I love you.
Probably more than i've ever loved anyone. nor anyone ever will. Its hard to forget those tiny moments we had. The candies you bought and the nonsense we do. I guess i've been stuck with you for so long, we've almost been everywhere together.

So much so that it's asphyxiating with every step i take. When i got together with you, i was mentally prepared for the emotional pain that i will go through. and it has been hell of a ride. But you do it so well the way you play my heart out on a string it's impossible not to be so madly in love with you.

The last time i held you in my arms i hated life for being so cruel. To have given me someone so perfect for me and yet not the honor to keep him by my side. Then our tears started to feed the ache and everything just got too heartbreaking we had to try and ignore the pain for a second and just... lie there together, mentally exhausted and emotionally overwhelmed. Just as always.

You are too beautiful, and too good to be true. I think i've drained all the love i can ever give all out to you. It's probably not gonna come back, and i'm probably not gonna ever dish out so much ever again. But you are not to blame. it's acquiescent. I'm never tired, never truly sad, never angry, never unavailable, never sick whenever i have to do something to make you happy. but... i was also never myself most of the time.

The change you brought about to me however, was for the better for me. And this i have to thank you so much. Right now, i would die to have you in my arms again. Run my fingers down your skinny frame, feel your cheekbones and watch you flutter those absurdly long lashes of yours. too cute. you'd show me that expression- you know, that one. the one which makes my knees go weak and render me vulnerable.

I'd go on and on. But i know i have to let you go. like, for real. forever. You probably couldn't care less now that you have always had the upper hand in the relationship, and being the strong, practical man you've always been.

I wish you all the best. You probably wouldn't even know this post ever existed. But i am going to spill all these out and that's it. I have to go forward and not look back. not even spare a moment to feel the stab in my heart. Because i guess.. just maybe, now its my turn to let someone else love me... like how i loved you.

And just like how it always ends, I love you baby. So much.

truth behind letting go.

2011-10-19T07:53:00.000-07:00

Halloween! I can't wait. Haven't you guys missed me? Been quite fucked up lately. I mean, what's new? HA HA HA. I will wear the scream mask to work when its the Halloween festival. And hang my spider at the shop!!! HEHEHEHE.

Do you see my dino peeking from the edge of the photo? He is so cute isn't he.

Forever reblog this. HAHAHAHAHAH. Where are you guys going for halloween?

2011-10-11T05:22:00.001-07:00

did you guys mizz me? :( school's been a bitch, but as compared to bitches, its far better. Will come back with a major update after sister's birthday! :D

smooth operator.

2011-09-29T12:45:00.000-07:00

I can't breathe. See you guys in a bit. :(

Best i ever had.

2011-09-27T11:04:00.000-07:00

I want to lie on your chest again. and we'd fall in love, for every split second.

then as i lay, close to your heart, i'll beg you to take me back to the start.

But what can I do? I guess God's decided i'm never meant for you. 

I could leave you, and try to forget. yet i know, you'll always be, 
the best i ever had.

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DUDES. VENDING MACHINE THAT DISPENSES UNDERWEAR!
I guess sometimes, men just wet themselves.

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Rule 1 of Ambstylz Eat Sleep Shit: Always starve unless you are able to make yummy omelet.

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I can see that it's normal for people to ride horses to town.

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Skinny Pizza @ Cityhall. It iz gud.
AmbeRATING for the bolognise pizza: 9.2/10!

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No time to draw complete storyboard and photosets for ALAB EPI 5 P2, know you guys are waiting for it. So i can only do a simple ALAB QUIZ :D hope it can contain your hunger for now ;)
BUT NO LA NOT NOW havent draw finish ;( 2 days ok?

Buenas Noches guys. I have to attend sch with rich cheena bobos in a couple of hours' time.

Lie with me, till the stars fall as shooting stars; then we'll make a wish for us to remain how we are.

Go on & use me.

2011-09-25T03:43:00.000-07:00

The tumblr community is too addictive to be true. And currently the weather and current time is just making me so lethargic. I was just wondering, on the making (or continuation) of my story which i composed 2 years back; I am keen to work on it again. Will you guys kindly tell me will it be better to post pictures together with the story? Or perhaps just one photo for every chapter?

exuberant;

2011-09-21T03:49:00.000-07:00

I watched as his slender fingers smoothed down the edge of his guitar; plucking the strings and working such an astounding melody in all its frenzied movements. His brows were creased in almost pure concentration. I couldn't find anywhere else to place my eyes but be transfixed on the beautiful posture. Eyes closed, he took my breath away-

I pictured my thighs wrapped around him, spilling dirty talk into his ears. Then feel the prickle of his hair as they stood erected, blood pounding in his veins. His fingers would probably work somewhere else with the same orgasmic ease, too. Tongue trailed down his neck, his breath drew more weight as I felt him asphyxiating in a smorgasbord of delirium.

Such a tease. His manhood was gnawing at the already damp fabric of his pants....

Oh my god. someone just spoilt my mood HAHAHAHHA. my stomach is growling >:(
you guys like reading such nasty stuff right!!!! HEHE. keep you updated. AND ALAB QUIZ WILL BE UP SOON!!! :D:DD:D

Almost excusable.

2011-09-18T22:54:00.000-07:00

Hello guys :)

I am back! I'm sure all of you heard of this song. Its dedicated to someone. He probably doesn't read my blog, whilst ironically his close kin probably read every last bit. oh well we all know how the story ends.

It's raining. and i am so sad. Because rainy days reminds me of him. I guess it always will. How can i allow myself to love someone so much, i have no idea. I wish you all the best. and i hope the next time round, you will love someone else as much as i have loved you. Its too bad god made you the perfect one for me but also that we are never meant to be.

2011-09-14T03:13:00.000-07:00

Brainstorming for ALAB :(

going genting in a few hours time. Please miss me guys!

Back with vengence

2011-09-14T00:02:00.000-07:00

Hi guys. I am back! :D

Been a rough time for me to get through. & i did it. I guess the best solution was that some assholes are best to be ignored and left alone. Although I had to break my heart to complete the mission, i realized that there's always another option. And I want to be myself again. I realized that it's a shame to close my blog just cuz of some people who did nothing but insult my pride and doubt my true character.

I don't see what's wrong with being myself. Do you? Sure I always do get criticized but who doesn't. At least there are people who love me... like you! :D

Hold tight cuz you'd be in for a ride. But of course tumblr has been wrapping itself tightly against my life thus you can always head over at: http://isaywhateverfuckiwant.tumblr.com for your dose of really hilarious tumblr-ish photos that i reblogged. Some quite indecent too. HAHAHAHA you know me ;)
I am still trying to figure a way to integrate them both together but it's kind of hard... or maybe i am noobshit.

Ok guys. watch this space :) ITS TIME TO CHANGE YOUR HOMEPAGE!!! hahahaha.

2011-04-19T21:15:00.000-07:00

LOL. cute bo.

WHY YOU SO CUTE

2011-04-14T07:41:00.000-07:00

Hi guys! Please do NOT watch HOP. it's not nice la really. if you didn't like Alvin and the chipmunks then you won't like this. D:

My eye is swollen. Fuck. school is starting for everyone except for me. Im useless :'( Anyway I just realized this post very long leh wtf.

Tcc's food imba expensive sia. But looks yummy hor? Hahaha

Went to farm mart with my sister & Hilda:

Potential Milkmaids!I'd really love to draw milk maid costumes on them but it slipped my mind whilst i was editing. lol.

FISH SPA!!! D:

Ya it kinda gave me the mini piranha vibes. Imagine if one of them mutates and starts eating my flesh OMG. My favorite QOO drink is back!

My Best friend

HAAHAHAHAHA LOOK AT THIS:

HAHAHAHAHA.

I'm brilliant. Here's a pauuuuuuu for you to see. Hahaha. Pauuuuu.

LOL.

My hair is screwed. NO MORE RED COLOR, EVER. and NO MORE OF THE SAME SALON.

HAHAHAHAHA I'm gonna get killed for this: (but wait, she doesnt use the com. HAHAHA )

OMG WTF DAMN FUNNY RIGHT HAHAHA

Quick, pay tribute to your king

Ash loves this drink. REALLY LA!!! and its NOT ALGAE but it really looks like isn't it!

Chika Sun.

Once upon a time, a boy called Flower wanted to come look for Amber but his phone was running flat. Amber waited for eons - she couldn't wait anymore thus she did this:

Spelling error la LOVE IS IN THE END wtf. Does that even makes sense?

ITS CALLED A KINDER BONBON! BON BON BONBONBONBONBONB HAHAHA

My sister has two furry balls. HAHAAHAHA

STORY TIME!!!!

CHEW KIA YEE'S TITLE OF FAME (Latest edition)

Look's like ahlians are getting more and more IT savvy and polluting our FPS games D: OMG!!!! SHOOT EM ALL.

MANHATTEN FISH MARKET: 3.90 fish & chips promotion. WHY SO CHEAP?

says a dubious amber: Maybe radiated :(

Fooling around in Cine with Ashley Sun:

HAHAHA I PUT MASCARA. SO LONG!!!! He looks like an ostrich :D

This photo is creepy. OMG WHO IS THAT GIRL IN THE BACKGROUND... I thought I was alone... *shudders

Lousy cam skills by Goh Eng hau lolol.

See ENGHAU'S FACE. he got a shock after taking that scary photo above. /petrified mode

Some Alabs (ahlians ah butches) quarrelling damn noisily. HAHAHAHA. You see 4 of them? 5mins later there were 3904289583959392 of them.

LOVE IS IN THE END NOW :( Bye guys! Hope you have a good weekend ahead. Watch RIO ok? Its fantastic.

2011-04-04T20:54:00.000-07:00

omg. RRRRRUAN JING TIAN WTF. WHY YOU SO HOT!

iZ, stop.

2011-03-30T04:50:00.000-07:00

Say CHEESE!

So imba cute? HAHA ;D I just got myself a camera. Cheap, sucky one from Canon. WHY!!! WHY MY BAG KENA STOLEN! WHY MY DAD NOT CAPITAL LAND BOSS?

Ok. Forget that emo shit. Let's get down & dirty.

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Hello you bitches. It's been long. HAHAHA. i dont know why but it sounds kinda obscene. But anyway. YOU MISSED ME DIDN'T YOU?! :D

Keep your panties up, it's gonna be an extremely long post. ~.~

Men are born this way:

Holy shit. Blame em blazing testosterone. Work has been way awful. I rather be taken in the ass by justin bieber and creamed on the face by hannah montana's orgasm. I mean. There's no worse combo in the world. But yes, that's work for you.

WORK AT THE FREAKING BANYAN TREE. the company saw to an approx of 20 employees leaving in a single month. now they have 1 more. ME. YES. LIBERATION. I gained a fucking 4KGS in 1 FUCKING MONTH OMGWTFUCKING x1000.

You know why? Cuz I eat and sit and sit and eat and drink milo and eat and sit. And eat tabaoed food from home and I finish every single fucking grain of rice cuz its so bloody cold there, its not a surprise to bump into a family of penguins.

Grandma's, sze chuan veg with mixed rice

For a pathetic 8.5$ an hour, you get to see this shit:

Kena this shit:

And do this shit:

Every day. Every single fucking day. Face backstabbers, bitches, (wait, they are the same. kinda.) And Geez, I thought Nan Hua was bad.

BUT ITS OK. TMR. I AM FREE. Let's celebrate with a cup of my favorite Gong Cha drink. Ok, please don't bring the debate about "KOI IS BETTER!!!" shit to me. I'm not interested. You like Koi your problem. I like this ONE drink from Gong cha its my problem. I Do not hardcore support Gong Cha like queuing from morning till night wearing a Gong Cha t-shirt or simply working there so I can drink a Cup of Gong Cha every one hour ( Which is probably gonna cost the whole hour of the pay for one drink )

So please. dudes. relax. Im not some fan. Its just a drink to me. Don't drag me into your no-sense.

Tbh, its overpriced and over-rated. But I like herbal jelly. I like fresh milk. I like to suck. It all makes sense. In one cup. Portable and user-friendly. Curbs 3 of my needs. Worth it.

Some random tcc snapshots. I'm so glad I didn't have to pay for it. (thanks to a certain Mr Chew)
It's too expensive. Are the prawns able to talk or wut.

Then we had mac. Work makes me hungry. And Hotcakes drives me crazy. In fact, IM GONNA EAT THEM AGAIN TMR WOOT. CELEBRATE.

I KNOW RIGHT. YOU CAN'T RESIST THIS. YOU CAN'T FUCKING RESIST. The smooth, soft yellow dop of margarine Seeping through the hotcake's warm & tender spongy tissue. The sweet maple syrup. leaving a sweet breaking-bite, then a salty after taste.

OMG ORGASMIC OR WHAT.

NARUTOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Willing to marry for: the kakashi keychain :( I got the sasuke one. sobs.

Stupid floaty balloon from Istudio. In this sibei ugly yellow color which was ultra distasteful and conspicuous. XX gave hers to this innocent little boy. Left with ash's So here's what we did:

Good idea? See? You've just gotten smarter. It looks like its part of the prop!

Went to this nice little jap restaurant for lunch. Its actually not bad!

I liked the cake/tart/whatever as well.

Says XX: Ok ok i shouldn't eat anymore I think I'm fat.

" But fuck. Let me just eat one... LAST mouth. LAST. I swear "

Ya, We know that's your last bite. Cuz that's the last on the entire plate. HA :D so cute.

Prices quite affordable. Food is worth the money and portion! at plaza sing, next to ajisen (yucks).

AMBERATING: 3.7/5

lol. that was totally random.

Got lost and ended up eating at this random coffeeshop. The food was horrible except for this claypot rice thingy. 12$ for a M sized pot. Quite yummy:

Now you want to talk about disgusting? I've read the reviews of this restaurant And there are many positive reviews. Here's one Truthful NEGATIVE & accurate one for you.

Momoji is at POMO, level 3. (beside Parklane) You think the paper steamboat looks nice? No it doesn't taste good. Hence the quote "looks can be deceiving".

So, we were just happily starting out with sashimi (its a buffet) when our friend screamed. A cockroach which was crawling on the pillar above our table has lost its footing and dropped into her steaming hotpot. It's a sad way to die for the cockroach but it's a sadder way to enjoy your dinner.

We decided to just continue when she screamed again. Apparently the cockroach's friend has decided to come and retrive the body as it bravely climbed onto our table. For the love of god. Thus, we decided to change table thinking perhaps its just bad feng shui.

You know what I'm gonna say next. We chose somewhere WITHOUT pillars. Just concrete ceiling. No holes no nothing. I went to take food. I felt something ticklish on my hand. Oh yay, it's an adorable baby cockroach. WOOT WOOT! I brushed it away and Cedric complained to the waiter.

The waiter (who was a China-ian) gave a fuck face and used his bare hands to squish the nymph, snortled and continued carrying his tray of food into the kitchen. Okay... now we know whos handling our food.

The snow crabs were dry and not fresh. Paper steamboat was horrible.. so are the hotplates. Only commendable is the sashimi. The salmon is juicy and sweet. Around 34+ per pax.

Totally... not worth it. Unless you like to eat bugs. I'm not going to give a rating. Cuz frankly, It'll be depressing for me to even type it. HAHAHA.

The next time you head to DIN TAI FENG, try these yummy red dates! I don't eat dates. but this is so delicious. Thanks to C CHAN's intro. & the black sesame buns too.

one of my best snaps using this camera. Beautiful off focus background. And the white chewy glutinous rice gently being squeezed out just looks sooooo yummy!

says C CHAN "See, I told you so!"

SOOO FAT AND ADORABLE. Hence, i do not like the word cute.

Girl: Am i ugly?
Guy: (fuck. tell the truth & i'm screwed. But i feel so gao wei telling a big fat lie)
Girl: Hmm?
Guy: You are cute XD

so here we go. CUTE. FUCK. IM NOT CUTE.

C CHAN'S awesome cleavage. I'd turn les for her.

Guys please. Stop drooling. What the fuck. I know what you are doing. Somehow, You are reading but constantly scrolling up to look at it again. Or you clicked right click .. save as...

LMAO.

Cafe Cartel's Triple choc milkshake with brownie crumbs. The holy godmother of sins.

You wouldn't wanna know why we did this but... He is so cute!

Ok this was like 5 thousand years ago. V day. HAHA his expressions totally suit the dialogue. or the other way round. I'm such a genius.

And then end it with one serving of ice cream (only one serving allowed in a buffet. It makes total sense!) with diluted chocolate sauce. wow. that's yummy.

YAKITORI, 11 Unity St, Robertson walk.
( Near Park Hotel, Opposite ZEN )

173$ Umeya. Lovely taste. Complements the grills.

Reasonable prices for food, I am not an avid sake drinker thus I do not know about the prices, however, I know they have ANY kind of sake you want. How's that! HAHA. The grilled stuffs are all chicken. Reason being, The owner came to Singapore to open this branch and went like "Ooh.. poultry in Singapore cannot make it~! Only Chicken okok! " And thus we have an all chicken yakitori. Excellent ambience.

AMBERATING: 4.1/5

Random shots:

I really love to play around with the cross process. SUPER PRETTY!

When you are sick, your caring mum will throw together this awful herbal tea which really seemed to be concocted from the most disgusting stuffs but hey! IT FREAKING WORKS.

Drink it, & rush to Wisma to have some SHIOK! Maki after that. Guarantee - Healed x 100.

We have come to the end of this post. Is your ass hurting yet?

RAIN RAIN! Says the little pig in red wellies.

Love ya guys. :) Please get your friends to fan my FUCKING ALAB!!!! I got my drawing pad. SO I CAN FREAKING USE A PEN!!!

adios. buenas noches.

please wait

2011-03-14T08:57:00.000-07:00

Please wait guys. Life has been a bitch. Thus give me 2 days and I'll be posting again :D

Don't miss me too much!

2011-02-09T01:27:00.000-08:00

Hi guys. I hope you received lots of ang bao for your CNY, because my birthday is coming :D
hahaha. Lots of stuffs have been fucking my life up recently. and all these incidents let me know that my life is filled with so many fake people that even taylor momsen seems more genuine. so fuck off, all of you.

amber & eve at the forbidden toilet

SEXY X10000 the next Singapore Idol.

oink oink. people love sleeping on my bed, even with its ugly boyish bedsheets. THERE'S A PIG ON MY BED.

some camwhoring saved only for new year since there's nothing to do.

manda & her awesome mario skills

my favorite boys :)

says yq: eh likes to be in photo ma, but cannot make it till too obvious ma. so he sneak behind people when they taking photo

LOL.

this v day, i don't want flowers. i want a bunny made of flowers :(

this guy is my perfect vday date!

so cute right.

this is all i want to say to you. :

anyway guys, remember my birthday is coming. HAHAHA :D

xD rpg ash.

2011-01-25T22:31:00.000-08:00

Loading map... : Secret Garden IV

twin blades samurai lvl 95. chio anot?

Sorry, i just thought this was too cute. I JUST HAD TO DRAW IT!!#!@$!!@ and dedicate one post just for it. ash was laughing about how the background seem like some rpg come to life and i thought.. i should just make it happen. hahaha.

for those of you fellow rpg-ers (esp inotia 3) , you should get it. of course, inspired by excessive watching of naruto. don't you think the look on his face just suits the whole thing. HAHAHA. talk about coincidence.

and yes, i drew the thingys on paint. HAHAHA. spent 3hours ok ;S and fuck, i lost the original photo. :( it was something like this:

hahaha. i'm so full of nonsense. alot of things haven't do ;( need to change blogskin, draw my alab and finish clearing my wardrobe :S

willing to marry for: a good massage.

raining raining every day

2011-01-11T22:50:00.000-08:00

HI PEEPS. HOW ARE YOU?
CAN'T WAIT FOR MY ALAB? I KNOW RIGHT!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Adam Lambert found his long lost doppleganger who got a little mixed up on the color palette.
oops.

HAHAHA :D or you can't tell the diff!!! that's cuz i'm too awesome. the one on the right is my friend shaun! who's indian and too cute to be true.

SNEAK PREVIEW OF ALAB 5!~~

no its not the best :D keep waiting! it'll probably be done by early next week. Hip 963 slogan thought up by ryan. in like 3 secs! Amazing. that's what you get from guys who are full of shit, extremely egoistic but irresistibly cuddly. alas. love hate relationship.

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ITS TIME FOR AMBER'S FEATURED GUY OF THE WEEK!!!

RYAN CHOW
20yrs old on 15th jan
WCG 2008 best hooker
176cm, sexy toned body
currently tabaoing modules in NP
romantic & amazing talker
SINGLE!!!

Spent time with the wcg 2009 champion aka nanda tan

HAHAHA. He was playing sf4 and i was so bored (because no cute guys) so i whipped out my camera and took these:

you guess who win? HULK BOY aka blanka! Cuz it was amazing nandatan who was controlling him. WOW!!!! *applause.

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went out on christmas eve with my poor ns boys. clerk clique. (Y) imba.

i dont understand? why his hat can stay pointy all the way!!!

TOO CUTE:

Ash and I have a WII at his house! Super mario is so hard >:( it's no longer like the old school brainless one. i died 125 times. cool.

BYEBYE CHRISTINA :(

ps: christina ur dress so sexy.

nh peeps:

can see carylyne's sexy cleavage. like.. C cup? ash's favorite.

went on cruise:

ok guys. its a rainy day but i need to head out for work :(
look at snuffles! aww so snug and cute. fits ash's little bolster perfectly! :D

he's the only physical memory i have of grandpa. the rest will only live unwavering in my heart till the day it ceases to beat. then i'll embrace the skies and stretch out my arms, let my spirit soar to search for him. now, i miss him, till the day we reunite.

so literaturish hor. hahahaha. BTW, my birthday coming soon leh!

1 more year to Armageddon !!!!

2011-01-04T10:29:00.000-08:00

OMG its 2011!!!

1 more year to armageddon :( Have you done everything that you want to do in life but haven't yet? Like, bungee jump, run naked in orchard (it seem like a trend nowadays to be naked in public), have mass orgy, tell ur girlfriend that actually she's fat, throw your baby on the floor cuz it wont stop crying, convince your mum that you are gay, and all the what nots.

AND OF COURSE, your new year resolutions that will never ever come true!!!

Signs that the end is near:

HAHAHAHA so cute right.

Overly-expensive korean bbq which leaves you smelling like shit, and!!! Some rare snaps of lionel. hahahhaha.

Christmas season!!! Little Styrofoam snowman. I want it as a pet :(

Ash's 21st birthday!!! It was epicfail.com because we were at a lanshop, trying to kill zombies. and it was a surprise that backfired :'(

sorry, i just had to do this:

LOL.

then ash goes back to his screen like nth happened >: (

So adorable x1000.

YAY :D food report:

Some random kopitiam near ICA building, (good place to eat whilst u wait for ur silly passport/ic) Block 10.

Go for the BBQ rice and boiled soup. The bbq charsiew is authentic over the charcoal kind!

BBQ rice AMBERATING: 4.3/5
SOUP + thingys AMBERATING: 4.2/5

Lmao at kinokuniya, a bookstore. kudos to the irony.

like seriously? its good for people my age to read pokemon?

Out with the boys:

classic nanda-squirming-face.

SEE!! We are so good. I aspire to thrash omglovesoh one day.

YAY! Another food report!!!

MAD FOR GARLIC, suntec conventional center

appetizer, cheese with a whole garlic. eat with baguette.
i thought it was abit weird? maybe its just me.
but definately not worth the price.

lionel's plain cheese pizza. nothing special.
prolly just 3/5 to me.

ash's grilled chicken with garlic rice.
i thought the fusion of different ingredients were
too overwhelming.. and not much hint of garlic

ryan's creamy lobster pasta, probably the
best out of the dishes we had. not too creamy
and generous serving of lobster. spaghetti
is cooked to the right texture.

mine was the signature hot plate garlic fried rice.
very very disappointing :(

Overall AMBERATING: 2.5/5
Not worth the price, and i guess, over rated.

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ok guys, ima go off and die now. will update again tomorrow
CUZ I HAVE ALOT MORE TO GO.
i know. i know, i will release my alab soon.

my garters nice right!!!

2010-12-16T01:34:00.000-08:00

sorry for the short hiatus. im a free bird now!!! exams are over. I am going on a cruizxe from tmr till sun. wait for me. Update on monday! :D

bye. no souvenirs for u.

I NEED RAMEN NOW

2010-11-23T15:24:00.000-08:00

ALL THANKS TO ASHLEY SUN.

after attempting to guess the password he put, i have decided i'm never going to be any form of a hacker or decoder.

Nice popiahs: Pontian cafe ( limited popiahs daily! ) and Lavender food sq

SHIOK MAKI!!! *screams in orgasm

see like that shiok anot? Grilled unagi, a niblet of avocado rolled in japanese rice & seaweed, totally enveloped in a generous slice of slippery & tangy salmon (i think, too busy eating to really go notice). Add a drizzle of sweet japanese cream sauce and a cascading amount of chewy roe. yummy!!!

Amberating: 4/5
Wisma Atria's food court,
Standalone Mini Jap sushi bar.

UNCLE, lim kopi ah? So convenient hor hang your bird here?

Says bird: chio anot? i spike my hair (L)

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ash: eh eh look at this potato chips.
nd & amb: ya what's with it
ash: see!!! IM RESISTING IT!
nd & amb: -____________-

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bye to my horrible job:

and my brain-twisted christian, buddhism hating boss
who has attitude problem, bad manners, hearing problems,
memory loss, obesity, short&hot temper, low eq,
no general knowledge & very stingy, unreasonable
and just plain fucked up.

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I tried: Ramen Culture at Katong

Amberating: 2.2/5

Not worth the money. Broth is too milky, (with traces of peanut or whatever nut) meat did not absorb the essence of the broth, and the ramen not cooked to a constant perfection.

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this is gross. i didn't take the photos. i just stood there
and scream like mad. *imagines

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enough of beetle. this is the epitome OF ORGASM.
Naruto will definately have 100034294234842 bowls of this.

Not many photos.. too busy eating it. CUZ ITS
TOO FUCKING AWESOME D:

Amberating: 4.4/5

Ippudo ramen can be found at
Mandarin Gallery, beside cineleisure.
2 floors up from the esc, right beside lawrys

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FREE QOO (almost expired)

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they need to do something about the
fail-art-or-marketing-gimmick-idk

are those his balls? I don't know.

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bye guys, im off to fantasize about megan fox
and play final fantasy epic rpg
and watch naruto shippuden
and play sims 2
and do hair and face mask
and relax at home
and eat junk food

ps: willing to marry for - An accounts teacher. ploxXXX

monthversary.. baby.

2010-11-09T17:30:00.001-08:00

I always thought the world will end by 2012, (after being inspired by the movie and adam lambert's voice), where the grounds will crack and devour us whole, tsunamis will asphyxiate us and it is possible to outrun a series of meatball-alike cascading meteors from the sky in a super chui car. Thus i started packing ammunition, food rations and first aid kit into my store room.

BUT ...

The world is ending in 2011!!! Everyone will switch to msn 2011 and we shall all perish. Say goodbye to your good ol' msn names where you can change at whim. Say goodbye to user friendly drop-lists and customizable backgrounds. say goodbye to your painting in msn and decent looking emoticons.

welcome to hell:

gracias muchos, my name is now perma stuck as: Amber Voir.
and almost half of my contacts are blocked. (ITS NOT MY FAULT. unless u are desperate. then yes, i intentionally blocked you.) If there's ever a update innocently masked as "IMPORTANT WINDOWS UPDATE" PLEASE DO NOT UPDATE IT. or we are all one step closer to end of the world!!!
NOOOOOOOOOO.

could this be grandpa? *stares at it

So, i was (not) happily on my way to work when i saw something reddish and conspicuous on the pavement.

WTF? looks like i better keep my eyes peeled for possible free shows around here in my ulu office site. voyeurism is free and very healthy. <-- truth.

chanel in a crisis-

amber: wtf? i told u already here is all barred off! why the taxi driver still alight u here wtf he stupid x1000.
chanel: cheebye! how? i cross road la
amber: wtf! cannot! here is junction and now peak hour you teleport also got problem.
chanel: wtf! HOW!
amber: climb over la. *takes photo
chanel: WTF!!! *looks around and climbs over unglam-ly. Cheebye fucked up day leh!

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I cooked dinner :D

baked salmon with dash of pepper, basil & lemon

homemade sauce

spicy bbq wings

buttered veg & steamed garlic rice with mixed herbs

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DO THEY STILL EXIST? :

amazing lionel the programmer at work:

Name: Lionel Ong
Age: 21
Currently: In National Slavery as a psp-playing clerk
Height: As short as me. (HAHAHA)
Weight: Too skinny for his own good.
+ points: Romantic, funny, sensitive, thoughtful, kind, friendly, amazing, good at programming, smart, faithful
- points: too good to be true. &, attached. hahahahahahahahaha ;p

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epic. i can make some random photos into a sub comic. *pats myself.

random day out with ashley sun:

says a snail: mind bringing me to the other side of the pavement please? it will save me.... 5 hours.

today is my favorite day! wednesday. and one more reason. *looks at the date. o.o

ash @ 11.51: happy monthlyversary. <-- (spell wrong) i go sleep le nights
amb: its not 12 yet.. (backspaced)

start counting down to your weekend!

says pussy lips (pun not intentionally intended): Bye guys. *slurpslurp.

to recovery

2010-10-26T21:23:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAHAHA IM SO FREAKING CHILDISH.
note: im not a neyo hater. Im in fact, a fan.

I don't mind, I don't i dont mind.~

Oh god, how lame can I get. :S

HELLO, CRUEL WORLD.

Some people are asking where am I officially blogging, tumblr or over here. Well I will be shifting my nonsensical blogging (the usuals) back over here, whilst my whining and emoing will be over at my tumblr which you do not have to see. Gulps*. Caution as it may cause severe depression. HAHAHAHA.

YOU KNOW WHAT'S GOD? my boss told me there's only one god in this world. yeap. there is only one god in my life. and that's my freaking ISOTREINOIN. HAHA.

Harms of isotreinoin:

- Severe liver damage
- Excessive peeling & drying of lips and skin
- Hair loss
- Unable to do vigorous sports or get under the sun
- Nausea, dizzinss and migraine
- (rare) Blurred vision & depression
- Not allowed to have baby. Not allowed to HAVE SEX FOR THE DURATION OF MEDICATION FOR FEAR OF PREGNANCY

>

Doc: Are you sexually active?
Me: Yes.
Doc: Great. You need oral contraceptives.
Me: That will make me fat.
Doc: Erm, yes there may be a certain weight gain
Me: I'm not eating it.
Doc: But you are not allowed to have a baby.
Me: I know. I will practise abstinence.
Doc: *raises his eyebrow// That's quite hard to promise.
Me: REALLY~~~!
Doc: Well, you know, some things are hard to control.
Me: *thinks of army officers in army shorts // Ok. I guess you are right. But i'm still not taking the pill.

Doc: Ok. Then you know what to do. *winkwinknudgenudge.

my expensive & holy & sacred GOD in its metallic wrapping

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Fucking ugly shot of me at some random disgusting restaurant in Bugis Junction-

I hope the shop close down soon. The food is pretty horrible.

When they tell you looks can be deceiving, sometimes just take their word for it.

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JONNIE GOES ARMY :D

All my boys are in army.. so sad D: That explains why I am also sad when sunday comes. Not just the ns men. HAHAHAHAHA. Last pizza I had with him:

The restaurant is at 313 somerset. I can't remember the name cuz it isn't that fantastic in my opinion. Overpriced, and the soup was like as though they took the water from the dead sea.

Have fun jon! You will POP soon. By then.. *counts: Oh, some people ORD liao. HAHAHAHA

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DONG DONG DONG, KUISHINBO.

WE ARE, KUISHINBO

The moment you hear that, you see half of the people are gone from their seats. Because the kitchen staff will give out some limited goodies like crayfish with cheese, strawberry melts etc. Totally suits the Singaporean flair, isn't it?

amb: oei, look at camera leh
ash: wait la i want eat my crab

amb: okok now can?
ash: *bites into crab// OMG YEAH. CAN CAN. *poses

HAHAHAHA

Nanda has no skills in eating the crabs there! His hands were dripping wet as though they were busy with a girl... rather than a crab. HAHAHAH

torty: wtf.. dig so long for that moment of pleasure

AFTER 192983291834918492 crabs:

ash: *bloats// omg. let's eat something else. I think i had too many crabs.
amb: kuishinbo is going to ban you soon.

close up of the epitome of indulgence

torty's self invented ice with candy balls.

(tastes the contrary of how pretty it looks)

*dong dong dong, kuishinbo

ash & ky looks at each other: LETS GO!

KUISHINBO can be found at suntec city, great world city, or jurong point.
Dinner is 54 nett per head. Free flow of everything except napkin. *coughs.

amberating: 8.2/10

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Random shots of food:

strawberry shortcake from bakerzin is one of my favs.

WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN IT IS RAINY, COLD, & YOU ARE HUNGRY?

don't tell me you don't know the answer leh!

even ahbengs also know.

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God of the week: Lionel

can't wait to see the prototype!

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willing to marry for: someone to give up his BTT slot to me.

P.S: another reason to hate my job.

2010-10-18T17:48:00.000-07:00

These are some seriously wicked boots. Stella Mccartney Wedge cut out boots, leather and buckle finish. Yummy! Off season, but who cares. Not like it has an expiry date. Plus, fashion is a cycle. We thought highwaisted skirts & polka dots were so grandma-fashion but the rage just died like 1 year back after reviving.

Much bullshit to do today whilst in the office. I can hear the storm brewing outside and feel the pounding of the furious rain. Speaking of furious. I am angry. I made a few mistakes and screwed up some invoices, had to re-do it. Thank god for edmund not getting pissed off by me.

I guess I just need to throw all my stupid emo thoughts away and just start to care more for myself for a change. I said I wanted to change so I must. So I was just doing up this fashion blog for my boss, who sometimes throws sales for coach bags, Kate Spade, Gucci, etc you name it.

Any girls (almost none) who may chance upon my blog, please do show your support at the upcoming sale if you are interested in getting a nice authentic bag at an impossibly good price. I designed the blog and I'm in charge of the postings. nothing fancy, i'd say about the blogskin. But I guess it isn't the focal point of the viewers HAHAHA.

do take a look, and you may subscribe to the Mailer if you wish.

http://fashiondustbag.blogspot.com

More photo uploads soon.

how do you be happy when the only thing that makes you happy
isn't making you happy?

IM BACK. BACK BACK.

2010-10-14T08:21:00.000-07:00

HI YOU HOLY BITCHES. IM BACK :D

I have decided to leave tumblr for good. Its boring, pissing me off and just plain disturbing to be forced by a number of people who wants me to "follow" their tumblrs. I hope blogger doesn't feel ruffled that I jumped ship for awhile.

But now that I'm back, im more in love with it than ever. As usual, new blogskin. HAHAHA. its the same template.. ( I KNOW YOU KNOW. ) im just lazy to type more htmls. But come on. some things that remain unchanged are sometimes the most comforting.

I updated my navigator strip. Check out my hall of fame! Haha. Took me some time to get the perfect pictures for the guys, and of course, polish up their titles. HAHAHA. who will emerge as the winner of having the longest title?! I have a sick feeling its going to be our dear torty since he is always so FOS ( full of shit )

photoblogging will be back in abit, currently work has been worse than enigma's blackhole.
My boss is a Christian. *gulps. my hair's a mess, my face has been rammed by a car, my body morphed into a hippo, my nails are chipped, my bank is facing a drought. Nothing's going well.

I like that.

It means things can only change for the better. Now, before I go to bed, please please please, pretty please, look at this video here!

HERE.

Epic boobs? Wholesome. *licks lips.

I have yet to tell anyone i'm back here yet, but updating will be frequent because... Penis is in my office, packed with all my awesome photoblogging gear. HEHE :D &!!!! Fan ALAB if you haven't! I'll be getting the graphic pen with my 1st pay.. (that's if it hits 200 fans)
Ok. My hp is left with 1. I need to go back to my fountain/mattress.

Buenas noches.!

a new start.

2010-08-24T21:32:00.000-07:00

i moved :D let me know if u wanna know my new addy. hahahaha

sometimes love.. is letting go.

2010-08-04T02:58:00.000-07:00

photo credit to thairia

Sometimes love, makes you feel that everything in this world is worth living for. The sunset never seemed more beautiful when you watch it in the arms of the man you truly love. and you just hate how much you have to think of him every single second, your fingers tingle and beg to be allowed to hold his hand. As you lie in his chest, his heartbeat synchronizes with yours, and you relish at the smiles that appear on both your faces. Love is when you look into his eyes and see that that's exactly how you look when you are looking at him.

Sometimes love, makes you strong, makes you stand in front of someone you love, perhaps to take a bullet, to take a blame, to let their tears land on your shoulder. Such love gives you strength to do everything you thought was impossible.

Sometimes love, makes you change. Tames you, makes you a better person. You go home early for he doesn't like you staying out late, he doesn't want you to go clubbing, he abhorrs you smoking, he loves you in white, loves you in short hair... Love makes you give in more than what you can actually bear. Just when you thought he'd hurt you enough to stop loving him, Love decides to give him yet another chance, and the next, and the next.

But sometimes love.. is letting go. The greatest love is to love yourself. I remember once, because of love, I forgo everything that made me, ME. I let him step all over my pride, ruin my life, break my heart umpteen times over. But still i held on, to the love that was cutting me, rendering all my wounds open.

How did i stop. I stopped when i realized, he don't love me anymore. And the best that I can do, is to save my love for someone worth it, namely, myself. My nails were chipped, hair's a mess, bank account drained to 0, my future looked bleak and i looked too ugly with all the crying i had done. My pride has been trampled all over the floor and people know me as "stupid girl".

Take a look at the man who's stabbing you with the knife. Ask yourself if he still loves you. Don't hesitate, the answer is no. No matter how many more times you are going to commit suicide the fact won't change. This is something you need to know about a man.

once they made up their minds, not even George Carlin can change it.

But i told myself, now im telling you, leaving someone who don't love you, means a step closer to someone whom you are meant to be with. Memories hurt you. But trust me. once you move on, you will look back and say to yourself:

"what the fuck! i can't believe i actually got together with this guy!"

When that boy left me, i felt so retarded and i wondered how to make him stay. ( trust me, i tried many ways ). Everything happens for a reason, and i found my reason. Its time to wipe off those tears and start looking for yours!

this stupid heart

2010-06-24T01:03:00.000-07:00

i regretted knowing you

gong gong, i love you

2010-06-12T02:13:00.001-07:00

i cannot imagine going over for dinner and then realizing that the man i loved the most is not going to open the door at 8pm, carrying with him fatigue weighed down from work, his favorite loaf of bread and daily newspapers.

i cannot imagine not sitting beside him watching him eat and peeling prawns for him. i cannot imagine no matter how much money i save for the Australia trip, he's never going to fulfil his promise and come along.

i'm never going to hold snuffles the same way again.

i can almost still feel the warmth of his wrinkly hand that lingers on my palm. there are no words nor actions to describe how much i love him. now i can only put him in my heart, and wish my tears will stop flowing.

so hard to let him go.

your hand that had no warmth

2010-06-06T23:52:00.000-07:00

Change.

As i stoned in this lazy afternoon, listening to the bustle of life passing by, I stared into space and wondered: What the fuck am I going to do with my life.

I hate love, hate being subjugated by it and absolutely abhor my stupid heart for being so obstinate. I kept waiting for it, waiting for my heart to just finally give up and leave. Even when the knife was piercing right through it, the inundation of anguish wasn't even enough to go anywhere close to giving up.

Heart holds out its quivering hands, lapping up every tiny bit of affection he gingerly throws. It latches on to the memories I couldn't seem to erase and births an invulnerable hope that things will be fine again.

It refuses to accept change.

But change is happening all around me, my enervated heart couldn't cope, it shuts itself away from everything and everyone, preserving only the memories and living within the stills of affection it collected. My mind is alert, and worried about all the impending issues that I have yet to solve and attend to.

I need to stop. Need to move on. Need to accept change, and destroy the surrealism of the ephemeral joy my heart thinks is love. because its not.

I need something called Strength.

the shadows told me they were lonely

2010-05-24T21:58:00.002-07:00

MORNING.

@ BUGIS with my sister

STEAMBOAT DINNER ♥
(accompanied by a lizard whos also having its own buffet!)

fucking ugly sia. i was adjusting my bra wtf

4 words: sweaty, smelly, sibei ugly.

OUR LIZARD FRIEND:

Out with Xing Xian. ♥
( we know each other for 11years liao ok! )

her breasts very big.. *jealous

KY'S SA SQUAD ENTERS QUARTER FINAL!

weird, but i think he looks like the fish from my previous post.

MUM's BIRTHDAY

omg.. sacred shot with the wcg 2009 champion

(i look like im enjoying it? you are kidding.
it was hot and i was in pain. )

LOL THE WONDERS OF PHOTOSCAPE.

which one cuter?

boring post, sorry. im too hungry. need to go for my dinner.

QUESTION OF THE DAY:

why do men always cheat?

where do broken hearts go?

2010-05-18T20:39:00.000-07:00

annoying orange's voice: HEY, HEY GUYS. HEY! HEYYY!

( caution: this post is image intensive, very vulgar and not for the faint hearted (nor christians). )

let me bitch for a while:

FUCKING IRRITATING BREAKOUT I SWEAR I AM GOING TO DIP MY FACE IN BLEACH AND WHY THE FUCK IS THE WEATHER SO FUCKING HOT AND SUDDENLY SO FUCKING RAINY? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THE EARTH MAN WE ARE ALL GOING TO DIE. SMELT MY PENIS'S CABLE BURNING JUST NOW SHITASSFUCK. AND WHY AM I SO FUCKING FAT.

ok, lets begin.

saw a maomaocong on my way to work:

Was at katong's 7-11 with my usual guys and look!!! The infamous 7-11 promotion is here:

1 bottle of 100 plus is 2.30

2 bottles of 100 plus is 2$! OMG, genius.

rongsheng gave me this yummy thai dessert.

what do you see from this small window?

my pregnant dad ;)

a shot of hardworking vince!

jap-chae from my restaurant. 15$, yummy!

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Eric came back to Singapore and invited me to dinner at this super sassy
( and fucking expensive ) Japanese "street" style restaurant. The orders are prepared fresh in front of you and... its awesomely delicious.

( not to mention, the japanese chefs are hot )

We spent a total of 600+! Can you imagine its just 2 of us, and i wasn't even like 80% full.

6 fat slices of super fresh sashimi = 40+
i really liked the white one, Eric prefers tuna.

7.5/10

Super expensive 240$ premium sake!

Eric was so bad he made me drink and drink...
I was practically floating my way to the toilet.

MY FAVORITE: GRILLED WAGYU BEEF

it's 10$ per cube, 30$ a stick, + 5$ for grilling fee. can you imagine?
i had 2 sticks. but im positive i can eat another 10 more sticks.
the meat is extremely tender with only the exterior
slightly firm. It melts in your mouth and the juice from
the meat forms the immaculate consonance with alittle lemon.

9.2/10!

65$ fresh bbq fish, grilled rice cakes and assorted scallops.

are you hungry yet?!?! :D

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grandmother's birthday:

i look fucking ugly that day. shit.

a peep into the kitchen! Vince's hard at work washing the imba load of dishes.
(im glad it was my off day)

My korean boss

Advanced anniversary celebration, Ash looked so cute

i look sibei fucking ugly la.. wtf.
YAA topman couple shirts :D

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nice flowers from rongsheng. but i may need to be a florist soon.

BREAKFAST DELUXE AT MAC :D

don't resist the power of scrambled eggs and hotcakes. ;/

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BIG FISH

haha! it hates ky :)

watch the video i took of the fish and ky! hehe
HERE

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OMG ITS CIRCLE LINE

my first time at circle line ok! Im a nerd

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KY & THE NEWYORK2 CHALLENGE!
finish the burger& the fries (41$, meant for 4 people)
and win an Xclusive T-shirt, rootbeer float & the burger for free.!

FINISHED AT 58mins.

says ky: i think i have burger phobia now...

FOR JOANNA: AE'S PATRICIA IN SILVER

is it just me. or the top? its me right? IM FUCKING FAT

"neh ni neh ni poo poo" says the bear

BYE. (few ending notes)

IM SELLING CLOTHES BY THE WAY.
http://isoffending.livejournal.com
MORE COMING SOON.

GOING TO RAIN.

SPEND AND END UR LIVES TOGETHER <-- note to charlene's teacher
( THERE IS NOTHING FUCKING WRONG WITH THIS SENTENCE, IDIOT. GO ASK YOUR BELOVED GOD.)

KY HAS ~~PMS~~ PNS.
( pre national-service syndrome )

baby dont go

2010-05-15T22:44:00.000-07:00

its all my fucking fault.

today was a fairytale..

2010-04-22T10:10:00.000-07:00

& so you held my hand, the stars were out - they were so pretty but boy you're what anything is ever about;

day 1 to the heartbreak

i traced the outline you made in bed
&captured every notion of your sleeping gait
i teared as we lay, so far apart
yet no further than your very heart.

detachment of your touch raze me asunder
looking into your eyes,i found no answer
your fluctuation teases like a slow suicide
anguish fills an abyss that hurts inside

my heart's all out cold at your backdoor
melancholy drowns with the silence it draws
mirthless rain rubbed your touch away
&doused memories that faded to grey.

i gazed at the emptiness between my fingers
held on to the memory of your hand that lingers
as the last wisps of your love enervated
the destitution within me dissipated

when i turn to watch you go.. i'd wish you know i love you so

they try to pull me away but im in love with you

2010-04-18T00:11:00.000-07:00

QUACK! says the bird/duck.

Amber tan shi qi is working! can you believe it? Quaint little restaurant at Beauty World, Bukit Timah. Come visit me ok? :D

Snaps of dinner at the restaurant:

I feel like im a Filipino maid after washing dishes the size of mount everest & sweeping/mopping the whole place. I dont do that at home! But working there has its perks. I get to eat yummy food for free :D

( and even take as much side dish as i want ♥ )

Saw this cute monkey at the bus stop while on the way to work! :D

the poor thing is hungry. i'll bring my pear and see if its still around tomorrow!

After working for so long i feel like i've been away from civilization for eons. I forgot how it feels like to slack at home and dota. ;(

and i probably forgot what is "Movie". I can't wait for TGIF. please come. I have now developed a fear for basins and wiping of tables.

Are you guys slacking your asses off? *Envies

Stroke my willie, judge!

♥

i dont believe in love. what? i dont believe in love. u are lying.

2010-04-13T06:38:00.001-07:00

ALIEN VOICE: Hi mortals. I am Lady GAGA aka Empress Lily Ng aka weird-blue-monster.

hahahaha i cannot stop laughing at the photo. mummy's gonna kill me for posting it here.
but she'll kill sister first because she's the one who edited the photo.

Best buddy request ever received, from 5enghau. :

can you believe your eyes? who wears such a shirt?

its probably gonna be the only reason why i swear off fast food.

Grumpy photo taking session with sister. Had to take so many photos because she insists im not smiling decently. WHAT THE FUCK.

ALAB fan art! (live)

The photo speaks for itself. :

literally. hahaha.

I promise i will wash all my dishes from today onwards because i get to see my gingers.

happy ginger has a panty now. dad drew it.

LMAO >> I can't believe there's such a studies-friendly lanshop.

Fan of korean food anyone? please support this korean restaurant at Beauty World, Bukit Timah. Quality, authentic korean food at an affordable price. Go together ok? :D

this drink is a killer. check out the grapes they squeezed into the can!

NICE PHOTO OF CHARLENE TAN SHI YING :

put as desktop wallpaper! bye guys.

i'd make it without you

2010-04-07T23:00:00.000-07:00

I just stumbled upon this photo taken during a photoshoot when i was clearing PENIS.
( for those of you whos' still unsure, PENIS is my laptop )

and then i noticed the ring i was sporting. its nothing fancy, just any ordinary couple ring that you can get anywhere. but its really silly how something so meager can mean so much.

i remember when it was when i wore the ring. ( we were crossing an overhead bridge ) i told myself i was the luckiest girl in the world because he was everything that i ever wanted. the ring somewhat felt like the only comfort that i could secure whenever he wasn't around.

but we met more downs than ups in the relationship. i guess that's the way life is.

Met ERIC who came back to Singapore!! he was driving Mercs Convertible and i can almost still feel the wind running through my hair. So with wind slapping my face, i could barely hear what he was saying, words that delivered tremors down to the very roots of my heart.
( LOL so dramatic, sorry i've been playing too much RPG )

So im here to impart the cruel facts of life to you guys, we need to wake up because there's no such thing as a fairytale.

LESSON OF THE DAY:

Studies have shown that love in a relationship only lasts a maximum of 1year9months, any longer than that is just a habit.

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The scales of a relationship is never balanced. Like a pull & push, scales tilt proportionately and the percentage is always 100%, only that the ratio determines whether you are the lucky one or the suay one, in either way, its going to cause pain for the latter and guilt for the former.

So i was telling KY about this last night and he strongly opposed such an idealogy. He points out that he has witnessed many people who stuck together till old and still do sweet stuffs for each other. ( referring to old people ).

But this is 2010. We see sex in primary school children and multiple abortions. We see mass orgies and girls are learning to look prettier ( fake or not ). Sure enough there are bound to be a few who still inherits the gene " faithful ".

BUT, faithful don't necessarily means love. it means you will stick to one. That's where the problem comes in. you can jolly well stick to one partner your whole life. That's a habit. see?

You tell me you've loved a girl for 6years. But the catch is that she doesn't love you. Uh-oh, boo to you. But that's also the reason why you love her for so fucking long. Something that you can't get always seem alluring and tempting to you.

______________________________

Let me explain what is love.

Superficial or not, the core of love has never changed since Flintstone fucked Wilma. Love is a mixture of chemicals to induce the need to have a potential mate for mating purposes and passing on of the genes. It is just the medium for the end product, which is = babies!

So, love and lust are intricately bonded. In love, lust is oftenly seen as its what produces the desire to have sex (namely, mating). The chemicals involved will be testosterone and estrogen.
*Quoted from wiki: these effects rarely last more than a few weeks or months.

That's why i always say, when the touching stops, the loving stops. It makes sense. see?

Then you are going to argue: I'm with my girlfriend for 5 years, i still have sex with her.
That's not lust. that's must. YOU NEED TO RELEASE.

Must is something you need to do.
Lust is something you WANT to do.

A couple has been in marriage for 3 years. The husband drives to pick up dinner for the family. Why? Because his wife said so. Its something he has to do.

Not something he goes:
" Woot omg! I am going to queue so fucking long to get dinner for my family although im damn tired cuz i really really want and love to do this!. "

get it?

Oxytocin, as i have mentioned in one of my previous articles- a quick recap,

Its known as the "Cuddle hormone", oftenly found released during sexual intercourse, and present in greater numbers in the female genitals,
(explaining why females need to cuddle after sex)

Quote from WIKI:

"The long-term attachment felt after the initial "in love" passionate phase of the relationship ends is related to oxytocin, a chemical released after orgasm."

( Btw, doing romantic stuffs for your girlfriend need not be love. It can be your character, the HABITUAL need to express your romantic personality or just a routine that you and your gf has gotten accustomed to. )

Example: A man buys flowers for his wife on their 10th anniversary. Perhaps he has done that for the last 9 years and it becomes a routine.

When you get married with kids, you are just probably staying together for the kids, and for someone to be there to grow old with you. (like an indirect investment)

___________________________

The only way to be in love with your partner is to fall in love all over again. But of course this doesn't just happen at whim.

rediscover, re-appreciate and make an effort to recreate what has slipped away for like ages - Love.

When was the last time you texted "Baby you are beautiful."?
(perhaps you never ever did)

Click me if love hurts <--- It isn't goodbye till you let go!

today is gonna be the day..

2010-04-07T03:09:00.000-07:00

Hi guys. I'm back :D

once upon a time CHEW KIA YEE and TAN NAN DA stand in the middle of orchard road, whipped out their itouch/phone and started to challenge HENHOUSE! but alas no talent, and we missed our last bus.

CHIO BO?

i just finished jogging. im sweaty and i can't think properly. the only thing i can think of right now is just soaking in the cold tub with many peach bubbles and drinking ice peach tea with a slice of lemon, served by a super cute school boy with his shirt tucked in and wearing specs, and a watch, preferably from fossil. HAHAHAH sick.

A logo speaks a thousand words. They say, when you are not hot, make sure you have something else to make up for it. and man, this ah pek sure knows how to make up for himself. -really well.

what the fuck, this poster. Kia yee like.
"What's bondage?"

kiayee: "only the head can move"

its wednesday guys, its MID WEEK. time to grab your partner, or your bolster, and start having sex. its time to relax and wait for TGIFriday!

feng

2010-02-05T07:13:00.000-08:00

The rain painted gloom in her heart. The air smells of fresh heartache. She took a breath which only rendered asphyxiation. Where it was wet it felt no coldness colder than her heart which was pouring.

excited

2010-01-01T00:08:00.000-08:00

HELLO GUYS, ~~HAPPY~~ NEW YEAR!

what's so happy about it, i don't get it. when i was in pri/sec school, 31th dec is the most sian day of my life cuz it means i will be starting school in just a few days.

Now, it's just telling me " Amber you are just that much away from being called an auntie now. "

Party,? forget it. who has time to celebrate? Nelly just told me of the date and venue of the SIA walk-in interview. I am so excited. I hope i get it. Hell yeah i do!

Remuneration & Service Benefits

A monthly allowance will be provided during training. Upon graduation, you can look forward to a basic salary and various allowances amounting to about $3,500 a month. In addition, there is an annual wage supplement of one month’s basic salary and profit-sharing bonus. You will also be entitled to free travel to any SIA destination once a year and enjoy discounted travel at other times.

I want to meet my Caucasian husband to be. And eat aeroplane food. Wear sexy stockings and indulge in mass orgies. Ok kidding.

Have you made your new year resolutions that you will never fulfil yet?

sick of love

2009-12-28T05:44:00.000-08:00

AMBER YOU ARE AN I-D-I-O-T.

plug: FIGHTER.

So I wanna say thank you, cause it...

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

i'm tired of love. * takes leave

i love you,. but its over

2009-12-28T03:05:00.000-08:00

UNHAPPY new year guys!
( whats so happy about a new year? it just means you are getting older )

sign that the world is coming to an end:

- the weather gets fucked up. -

MEANING? the sun has fizzled ur arse till you look like a roasted barbie doll!!!!!
the perfect barbie nightmare:

don't rub your eyes. it's real. its alive. no, its not a barbie doll, Hawaii edition. Note, HAWAII. not KAWAII.

btw guys, xiao xin has suggested that I start an ALAB page, so i will be posting all of my comics on the page HERE from now on. please do be a fan!

you know when you are poor, what's the best thing that can happen to you?
get rich, virtually. ya its a cheap thrill., but no one's complaining!

on a side note how come i see an increased number of humans who are confused about their genders? talk about a wardrobe malfunction.

boy, i wish i've those legs

on top of the world with lincoln:

outing with my favorite boys:

CHRISTMAS spirit:

IS THAT CUTE OR CUTE?

boliao stuffs to do when you are at town:

We had a mini christmas party at my house but i packed on monster sized calories after the meal.

we had this fizzy champagne, which reminds me of alcohol, which reminds me of one fateful wednesday:

this is what happens when you drink:

my inner lesbian is unleashed. BUT she had amazing cleavage. oh man! ( i hope this is not counted as cheating )

Anyway, some cam whoring was a necessity:

i think wendy holds the 1st place for this kuku pose

WE PLAYED GAMES and my sister took forever to guess HUMPTY DUMPTY
LMAO pwnt

awful, my father who is almost 30 years my senior beat me to flexis.

1$ for 1 oreo cookie (only) anyone interested?
MARBLE SLAB @ iluma.

going out with ashley consists of mainly eating, eating, and eating.

LOL looks like one actor from STORM WARRIORS forgot to return his costume :

from left to right: noob, pro, PROest

bye guys!

cuz i am your lady

2009-12-09T05:33:00.000-08:00

so, i was just sitting down having a drink at BUGIS macdonalds when i saw a terrible sight:

she apparently got dumped by her boyfriend, and her ( really useless ) friend was trying to comfort her. So as i watch the interesting sight i gathered a few points:

1) the friend is more conscious about the number of eyeballs watching them than her sobbing friend.

2) the crying girl looks like a total wreck.

3) from the phone conversation, the boyfriend sounds like he cheated on her then decided the affair was a nicer partner to be with.

4) the crying girl is stupid.

that makes me think of something, somewhat related.
Heads up butts stick to your seats, ladies ( and jerks ) keep your eyes peeled.

AMBERLOGY lesson 43:

Every woman wants their man to take care of her every little need.

Every man, wants their woman to take care of his ONE little need.

That's the sick truth which has been sitting around for as long as cockroaches were bigger than my head. You see, the thing is some local girls can't get it into their STUPID heads.

because that's what's hardwired into them, baby.
That's the reason why guys are attracted to voluptuous figures, plunging necklines and yes, big and beautiful breasts. It's a sign of fertility. As much as you don't recognize it- Although the society has evolved much, human nature somewhat remains untamed.

We need to reproduce. That's what's written on a chip and embedded in our brains.
Males are required to generate more copies of themselves and pass on their genes before they pass on.- literally. Females are, well, a medium for that to happen. SAD, but true.

TODAY'S LESSON, answers " WHY DON'T MEN CUDDLE AFTER SEX? "
it usually goes like this, in a nutshell:

we lie on bed.
he cuddle me.
then kiss me.
i feel him erecting.
we touch here touch there awhile.
he tries ( feebly ) to arouse me. ( just for the sake of doing so )
i give him a blowjob.
he come on top of me and go in and out
then %#^$@#%@ he came.
he puts on his underwear.
he says bb and goes to sleep.
i lie there like idiot.

all in 5 mins.

Scientifically :

Oxytocin, ( aka "Cuddle-hormone" ) is a hormone which is released into human bodies upon stimulation by passion. But you see, Oxytocin is present in a much larger quantity in females than male. AND,

The hormone dies in the male bloodstream the moment his dick gets done with whatever business it was doing, but still surging through the female's.

There you have it. The most basic and bastard truth behind every guy's ridiculously selfish act. He probably didn't mean it. He was just "letting nature take control of my body".

But of course some guys have mastered how to "pretend you have more oxytocin" and cuddle their lucky girlfriends to sleep. But not everyone is so lucky!

So feel better already!

And to the girl crying:
there are better fucks out there!

you know how to flirt, you know how to get a boyfriend. Now learn how to keep him.

There's only one way:

" Do it like a lady, but think it like a man "

I will post some normal PG post soon. its time to GET IT ON in dota now!

but boy you look too good to be true

2009-12-01T01:53:00.001-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

( i know its not here yet lah think i can't count!?!? its a tradition in Singapore to do everything in advance but strangely I am not affected in the sense when im always late )

Ion orchard looks amazing! minus the disgusting crowd.

Don't ask me why the photos look like shit. don't blame my camera! its Blogger which has implemented this silly system where we have a limited space for all our photos. SO, bo bian need to reduce and resize the quality till like SHIT. i can almost see the pixels from here. yucks

we all love : DIN TAI FENG!

TELL ME: why the toilets in ion orchard are:

1) bigger than my entire house
2) machiam take part in toilet compy
3) so exaggeratedly high tech?
( some poor ah ma didn't know where the hand dryer was hidden )

my toilet looks like shit compared to this.

SPERM!

(tu) narcissm time at Takashimaya:

CARTIER, BABY.

more (tu) time at the bus stop.

THE GIRL BESIDE ME at the bus stop:
( you know how hard to take the photo anot? need skill ok! )

Hot tomato express @ plaza sing!

MORE (tu) for you!:

So i was flipping through a magazine and i got the shock of my life. I saw this mushroom head looking leprechaun thing with discolored eye make up and mis-matching clothes to pull off the extremely gross image. HOW CAN THIS BE ON THE MAGAZINE?

( no more boner material guys. this is the shizz )

Seems like people are bored of the usual christmas trees. they just HAD to be creative and..
put it upside down! WOOHOO!

Beef chilli cheese fries @ Carl's Jr! Pair it with their PORTOBELLO mushroom burger.

See? now you know why im so fat.
My fav: Soft shell crab hand roll!

The only reason for you to :

1) stay up late all night
2) wake up early in the morning

Big Breakfast at Mac. only $6++

( unless you are like Ky or Ash and add 294928592895 omelettes and sausages TILL THE COVER CANNOT CLOSE )

Animal cruelty:

Ash: Eh my dog scared of umbrella.
Amb: Really? Why?
Ash: HAHAHA. don't know really it scared. see
* takes umbrella and advances to dog

Dog: looks at ash with fearful eyes and cowers

Ash: HAHAHAHA see!!!
* Opens umbrella

Dog: Whines and hides in a corner
Amb: You damn mean leh wtf.
Ash: AHAHHAA SEE ITS SCARED HAHAHA

*puts opened umbrella at dog.

Dog: Shuts its eyes and prays that everything will be over soon

Why Singaporean guys so zilian? : ( *points at wenjie )

WHAT does a loving father do when the daughter was crying because her cafe world in Face book had a glitch?!

He cooks a nice warm bowl of curry noodles and adds her favorite seaweed chicken to it T.T

Note: It's not that i put too much make up and look too white. Is that he got sunburnt and look too dark ok!

COCKROACHES!!!!!

Watch Case 39 its awesome okay!

MOVIES YOU MUST WATCH OR DIE WITH REGRETS:

Case 39
Happy Flight
New Moon
2012
My girlfriend is an agent
Ninja Assassin

MOVIES YOU WATCH LE CONFIRM DIE WITH REGRETS:

A christmas carol
Fantastic Mr fox
The informant ( to wenjie it was pure torment )

I have stomach flu, what luck. Anyone wants to skip school? Come let me spread some germs to you. :D

2009-11-25T17:20:00.000-08:00

HI NOOBS.
( this post has alot of dota jargon. wait. oh all my posts have always been. )

I have ultimately been destroyed by double damage pa with quadruple DRS resulting in scarred exterior, loss of gold and a long respawn time. Meanwhile i shall be updating every day whilst i regenerate my HP. And as i am not pro like X1a0WuGu1, my fountain only regenerates o.1 Hp per hour so i will take longer before i can enter the battlefield again.

we are all in awe by the FAMOUS & PRO WCG PLAYER X1a0WuGu1 Aka TORTOISE so here's more photos of him. MY sister can't be more than honored to be sitting beside him much less than taking photos!

LOL i am so bo liao.

Family day at EAST COAST, WHERE MY SISTER RODE HER BICYCLE INTO A BUSH LOLOLOLOLOL. *looks at Eng hau

and then she picks up the bicycle.. AND RAMMED INTO THE FENCE.
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOOOLOOOOOL

cute hor:

One plate of duck rice 5 dollar so nice meh so many people queue. thought the rice is like food from heaven. WAN LAI SI ( but actually ) the ah peks purposely do so slow machiam medusa use ulti and slow them like that WTF x1000

disgusting cockle, ( just like my sister )

THAI BURGER FROM BOTAK JONES!
says ryan: this is not just DD! Its triple DD + DR,! Look at the carbo!!!!

Baked cheese potato.
Burger bun
FRIES

GG!

Sorry, on a random note i had to express that i like long stuffs and elephants..
*innocuous eyes

SENTOSA COVE, WHERE ARE YOU?

Lesson learnt from monopoly-rubbish-game-from-macdonalds:

1) Its a faux
2) Spamming mcspicy is the most favorite bad thing to do
3) Sentosa cove can only be gotten in your dreams
4) Geylang had spelling error. Apparently the printer was gay. The paper wrote GEYLAND
5) The small fries + nuggets + free food that you get only makes you fat. nothing to be happy about.

NANA TIME: ( ADOPTION NOTICE, "adorable" little tortoise )

Name: Tan Nan Da

Nicknames: XWG, PRO, WCGPRO, SUPERWCGPRO, SUPERULTRAEXTRAIMBAWCGPRO, NANA, NATA DE COCO, NAA, NAN, DA, TORTOISE, RETARD, IDIOT, STUPID, BRAINLESS, PRO TINKER *too many to list

Age: 19

GOOD POINTS:

- WCGpro support/carry/anything you want. Best hero: -random.
- Immaculate and beyond god-like piano skills.
- Eats every thing that you throw at him except for certain vegetables.
- Goes anywhere with you but CAUTION: not small enough to fit into your bag
- Sweet and thoughtful <--- what more you want?!
- *NEWLY ADDED: Toni & Guy HAIR MODEL OMG!?!?!? *cool shizz

BAD POINTS:

- Constantly forgetting to bring his brain out
- Most vulnerable weakness: ( check his pokemon card at facebook to know what is it )
- Unable to Guai lan successfully because he is a sweetassangel
- Unable to feed in dota due to being overly pro ( not useful in playing SPOOF )
- Hair grows too fast.

www.facebook.com/fansite/PROWCGxwgakaTORTOISE.htm

for idiots: ( dont click it its fake la duh )

LIFE WITHOUT A BRAIN by ATSQ:

MADE MY DAY:

Bye! SEND ME MORE GIFTS IN CAFE WORLD!

2009-11-17T08:26:00.000-08:00

surfeited mind & my vacuous heart
devoted loneliness plays its part.
whilst i lay with my eyes closed wide
memories of your touch quietly subsides.

pensive night with its lonely moon
hadth filled my heart with endless gloom.
you are the end in every waking dream
the closer i get the further you seem.

no greater love can hurt like this
as bitter wind renders its cold solace,
departed moments they felt so near
adamant longing for you to be here

as the rain keeps pouring, my heart's hypnotized

by its solitary embrace and somber cries
boy tell me- what do i do,
when all i can think of is missing you;

awesome photo. i wanna stay in such a house.

obsession. oh- contradiction

2009-11-07T20:43:00.000-08:00

HI BITCHES

Lovely day to camp in front of your computer and chiong silly facebook games like crazy!
Don't eat don't sleep don't shit don't fuck don't shop! JUST PLAY AND PLAY till you win everyone! That's life, dudes.

WATCH THIS SHIT :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=myr3jicImmI
( you won't regret it )

So, totally SHINGZ man just now, went bugis. The ahlians come bugis JUNCTION i thought they upgrade but actually they came to smoke here then go back to bugis street. Maybe the dustbin at bugis junction nicer to smother the cig butts? IDK.

All the XAL ( xiao ah lians ) think they damn cool with their totally CMI XAB come terrorize us with their impenetrable makeup. Saw one of them smoking the Smoke she exhale totally like the Air in Genting. Nana laugh when we walked past he said " She never tarik! "

( for people who practices good english ) Tarik : Never fully inhale the smoke and exhale it out

So i was shocked x100000. CIGARETTES SO EX STILL WASTE wtf sia :

*Retch out 959468938598124141 buckets of teddybear biscuits. Enough of disgusting people.

Belated present to my sister!! A Juicy couture wallet :D

Thanks to respective people! You know who you are.

ONE FINE DAY, a small tortoise camped at the Student Service Center waiting for an important document to be faxed over. He stares damn long at the thing which the people claim to be a fax machine.

30 mins later I got really frustrated and demanded the people to check for another fax machine. The guy walks out of the office and emerges with the paper which was faxed 20mins ago. I stared at the machine in front of me :

Stupidity > Me

Here's how to waste time and money:

GRAB CUTE BUT CHEAPO MADE IN CHINA SOFT TOYS while waiting for movie to start!

BOOMZ! In a blink of an eye the lever lowered the awesomely-cute seal and it was right in front of my astounded gaze ( see below ) only separated by a glass. HOW MAGICAL!

Snap of sister's seal on top of mine. Knows what this photo resembles?

Bottom: Before wash
Top: After wash

Totally-smokin-hot-AHBENG-wcgPRO-underageSmoker LITTLE BLAH with my sister & cousin:

*Laughs and rolls on the floor in spasms:

Was nana really smiling for the camera or using the chance to surreptitiously snigger at ryan's distorted face?!?!? HAHAHAHAA

Some random photos taken at DBL 0:

Don't ask me why ryan not in photo la Cuz he take the photo for us la?!
Don't ask me why don't want to ask other people take.. cuz we cannot see, everywhere darkdark sia. ( If you frequent dbl O you will get whats btw the line )

HI. I AM A VAMPIRE wannabe:

I FOUND A PREY but he looks too cute to be eaten. hmm... *thinks about Edward Cullen & Bella

It's my first attempt at Cross process and smart blur but sian that angle can't see my blood T.T

EH is so cute.

I know my sister looks like a potianak who mastered the art of appearing in sunlight

See? Don't yawn with your mouth wide open the next time you board a bus. You'll never know what flies into your unwary mouth. Just in case you are motherfucking blind, he is cutting his nails. Pardon my sister's distorted facial expression.

Talking about distortion. I was having fun with photoscape!

A photo for you to puke at. BYE GUYS.

CHECK BACK FOR MY NEXT POST'S HIGHLIGHT:

"QUIZ TIME! : WHAT ARMOUR TYPE IS YOUR ( or your gf's ) MAKEUP ? "

2009-10-28T03:47:00.001-07:00

MEMORIES, i'd say are the worst nightmares.

You know, many a times i always tell everyone "No, i've never regretted anything in my life." Everyone says its useless to regret. But the fact is that as much as its stupid to do so, it's like a habit you can't kick.

You can't stop saying to yourself "FUCK la, why the fuck did i do this that time? What the fuck was i thinking? " Then you sulk for the whole freaking day. I left him eventually but what he left me was such a deep emotional scar that i need to carry for the rest of my life.

And, the truth is I really can't stop thinking about it. I can't stop calculating how much of my fucking money was stolen when i was at his house. Okay, we all know who are the prime suspects but let's just stfu about it. I can't stop touching those scars on my thigh and think back on how i got it. I look at my phone "to-do" notes and can't stop complaining about the many notes that says "blabla owes you xx$"

BUT what to do i did on my own accord. Oh you know what do I hate the most about it. It's "taking for granted". If there can be anyone who i can just kill now it gotta be her. I've never ever, seen such a shallow bitch in my entire life. Okay but you know there's this phrase called ( direct translation) If the foundation is not straight anything built on top of it will be slanted.

So yeah we are all smart enough to know what it means. Sometimes during rare catch-ups with my friends and then they ask me what happened to "us", my story usually draws all the :O and O.O from everyone. Its so dramatic i can almost go tell JackNeo to make a movie out of it

GOD. i am so disgusted at myself for being so fucking stupid. it was like "pride" was totally scribbled off my dictionary. i don't hate him. Its really amazing how disgusted i am at myself for habouring such immense love for someone that i am blind to what's becoming of me. i heard he's changed for the greater good.
( I am dubious but who the fuck cares ).

I think, i will use SIMS2 to make a story out of this. HAHAHAHAHA, anyone interested? POLL TIME

On a side note, guys from the east are cute. >.>

boy you're messing with my head

2009-10-24T13:19:00.000-07:00

HELLO, (tu) aka dota G0D gives his greetings with a cabbage between his lips.
( if you are so retarded that you don't get whats (tu), try typing it in msn )

He forgot to bring his brains out today. oh no.

I'm so going to update again soon. i just... give up on my economics, screw PBM i dont wan't to look at it. I am so broke, can go eat Grass sffx10000 (so fucking sian)

I need a facial-

you wanna help with that, boy? *winkwinknudgenudge

Okay some random photos of food. *pats tummy and thinks about the 13 and a half mac nuggets in my stomach. SEE? told you im fat

( lincoln and his god damn pepperoni )

Margaritas! ( fucking ex i swear )

Very lovely meal. the waiter was cute too. *winks

Happy Halloween guys!

boom boom boom!

2009-10-09T19:03:00.000-07:00

I like that boom boom pow
Them chickens jackin' my style
I wear a RAD bra to town
get covered in PRINGS, be that next shit now

Oh I'm so 2009
I cant memorize my course name i dont deny
something that says ME, BOOMZ, BOOMZ, BOOMZ
That future boom, boom, boom
(*oh hang on lawyer's calling)
Let me get it now

R.LOW > B.E.P

who's cuter? I can't decide. anyway cheers to ashley, he is currently serving National Slavery! *withdrawal symptoms: I need to set new bejeweled high score.......

3Some was AWESOME :D

Let's have some fun this beat is sick. wendy's ribbon is so....... chio

MISSING DOG:

SNUFFLES, AGE 8,
color: LIGHT BROWN.
breed: mouthless and sexless, requires active sex.
Marks: Ash poked a hole at its rear claiming its female
NOTE: it is not a bear. it is a dog.

NOW, who kidnapped my baby?

IF FOUND PLS RETURN TO OWNER ( me ) and you will be REWARDED with anything you want.

*last seen with TND ( tan nan da )

CHEERS GUYS, now don't you EVER forget what's your course name!

everything but you

2009-09-15T05:51:00.001-07:00

HI, NUBS.

it has been long. i bet you missed me. :D SO,, you love me huh? OKAY. see? my dream house right below *drools at 6th avenue. \ i think that's the only part of journeying to school which i look forward to.

With swimming pool and warm polished wooden balcony and white washed walls. BEAUTIFUL is an understatement. its.. almost as big as my school. Okay almost. HAHAHAHA.

BUY it for me! throw in one walk in closet! + 3 lamborghinis to fill the front porch! ( and 3 sexy butlers! )

im thinking too much.

Miu Miu is opening soon! I can't wait to drop by the new store and take a look. LOOKING IS FREE!

Sophia's birthday on 9/11!

i think my photo quality is lanjiaozx. sorry! blogger uploads too slowly so i had to reduce the quality!

see this! what a bitch that girl is. throw her pad at her!

saw this uber cute international school chinesemix-dontknowwhat schoolboy. in his uniform! OMG how orgasmic. apparently he had the intention of taking my number but too shy about it. oh come on. THAT'S TOTALLY CUTE.

*fantasizes about little boys in shorts.

Some random zilian photos

self timer works like a gem except that i think uncles were really feasting on my upskirt whilst i squat down hastily for the camera.

MY SAVIOUR! is here

but judging from the looks of it, its still too small. I haven't been shopping at all you know!?!?!

saw the pile on the floor? i was too lazy so i threw a white cloth over it and pray that mummy doesn't see it.! HAHAHAHA, *evil laughter

EARTHQUAKE!!!!!!!!!! nooooooooooooo

it was 8 fucking scoops of fat! and ky eh and as lapped them up. BO CHUN. crazy.

IM FAT ;( but its really hard to resist a really GIGANTIC ball covered in tomato sauce

:(:(:(

tempted right!!!! anyway... SCHOOL IS BORING OK

AS gave me a riddle :

The person who buys it does not need it.

The person who makes it does not need it.

The person who uses it does not know he's using it.

What is it?

Bye guys :D

fucking conjunctivites

2009-09-06T11:37:00.000-07:00

randoMUSING

____________________________________________

oh, a goddess, she is divine- and so voluptuary. the shy encounters demise and lust propels throughout like poison fields whenever she is near.

I worship her.

Every man could stare right at her, tuck their hands into their pockets to grapple at their hard-on ; minds spiralling with covet thoughts. Those of unholy whims, lewd and ineluctable.

I can die filling my mind with thoughts of her, Oh, my goddess. She is the paramount of beauty and the dictator of sex. Anyone will wait out kneeling in the cold in a fervent prayer, just for a moment to bury their tongues between her legs and taste her honeyed nectar.

Oh, sweet acquiescent bliss.

Her eyes were transfixed upon me, those beguiling orbs, the multitudinous colors enraptures me. I caught a whiff of her musky womanly scent. My manhood throbbed painfully, wanting release, wanting her dewy lips parting to embrace my shaft.

She stood up, towering above me. I felt less than human, less than dust. I knelt, and she pressed against me, my face between her thighs. She wore a luxurious robe, smooth and shiny. She tugged at the strings and the robe fell onto the floor.

her every move had me bewitched.

Silk butterflies flitted through me in a rhapsody, and the frenzy almost made me motion sick. Her soft furry mound was now against my lips. I parted my lips, yearning for a taste. She stopped me, her delicate snowy hand firmly grappling my hair. Her immaculate lips twisted into a tiny smirk.

With her free hand, the goddess sank her silky finger into her rosebud colored cleft. She let out soft perpetual moans. Her precious nectar trickled down her sculpted legs. My mouth was wet, my tongue screamed for a lick.

" Drink it. " my goddess instructed. I complied, unfurling the hunger i kept inside me. It was so sensuous, i devoured the cascading juice ravenously. She tasted so sweet, like honeysuckles and wild roses. My hard-on was ebbing so hard, i almost spilled. But i controlled. I wanted to save it all, - for my beloved queen.

" Touch yourself. " comes the next order. It was a tricky task. Mere cerebration of the goddess could already trigger erogenous reactions. Now that she was performing such an act,the result of jerking off will be culpable.

I gripped my manhood, goosebumps tingled upon my skin. My mind tried to belie that nocuous movement of my hand. The goddess laughed, her peals of laughter resounding through my mind like gentle wind chimes.

Just as my erection felt that it was about to burst, the goddess jerked hard at my hair. Sharp pain shot through my body, pulling my climax down to null. Oh goddess, she was so adept at reading me, like flowing sand, like an open book.

She beckoned me to her love nest, her body moving adroitly, sensually. Her flawless gait seems to have no friction, no collision, as though she floats. She lie, amongst her pillows, fat with soft downy plume, her skin stands out from the wine colored tapestry and intricate bedding.

She's like a masterpiece.

I bent forward, to kiss her toes, and then sat down beside her. She flicked her honeycomb colored hair away from her face, gingerly, her lips puckered into a slow tease. She trailed her lovely finger down to her palm sized mounds, encircling her erect nipples, pink with delight.

" Taste them ". I was anticipating such an order. I pounced at her downy breasts, relishing each bite with gratitude, I licked and nibbled at her left nipple, and played with her right one with my fingers. Her breasts were soft yet firm to touch, smelling like roses and paperhearts.

Thee!, i'm a volitional captive of your ethereal seduction.

My goddess screamed with ecstasy, the bedsheets dampened with smell of her sex. She pushed me away and down, right down to where i desired to satiate my lustful hunger. She parted her legs, showing her perfect valley which was trickling profusely with her endless nectar.

I lunged at her pearl-like clitoris, teasing and sucking till she vibrates, as like an earthquake throughout the entire universe. I inserted my finger into her saccharine cavity, feeling my way for her sweet spot. I consumed her juice and milked her dry.

My fingers made a juicy, squishy sound against her sex, churning up a sea against her velvet thighs. I burrowed deeper, my tongue working sedulously. I feel her breathing fluctuating simultaneously. The notion brings excitement within me in a paroxysm.

Oh goddess, let me offer myself to you, across your holy altar.

She moans and arched her body in a rhythmic motion. She then signaled me to stop, affixing a feral stare, igniting an array of fireworks upon my heart. " Now fuck me. " My goddess parted her legs wider, her lush furry mound stained with sweat and juice, her crevice opening and beckoning.

Even crude words were sexy, upon the lips of my goddess.

My manhood quivered at those three sacred words and wet itself, spewing transparent lubrication. The goddess stuck out her finger, swiping off the pre-cum, her tongue flickering to receive the masculine odor i produced. My heart convulsed at the thought of my cum entering her holy body and i shuddered with sheer delirium.

I mounted her, with trembling hands, i guided my manhood to her awaiting entrance. I plunged deep into her valley, my erection coated with her juice. I cupped her flailing breasts, meshing my thighs against hers, going faster and harder with each penetration.

Resistance is futile, as like the universe, my goddess is. I am but a star.

Our bodies worked in a dynamic synchro ; magical stealth. She gripped the bedsheets, her blood red nails digging furiously. She throws her head back, letting out a loud cry of euphoria. " COME. " she screams, and as she has expected it, I released just as she did, our juices engaged in a mid-air battle in her womb. My ejaculations were fierce, as i delved into her, spilling all of me deep into her.

As we were in an exhausted embrace, my goddess planted a kiss on my forehead.
" I love you. " those words that left her lips caused my humble heart to haul into an overdrive.

It may be a cosplay on our part, but deep inside, she was indeed my goddess.

now, and forever.

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inspired by " She comes stars " in the book : Garden of the perverse. This is one of my most feminist and abstract writings ever.

Lmao. my eye is still swollen. Fucken conjunctivitis.

Question of the day : Is it possible to love two with one heart?

Im currently using firefox. apparently cocked up netbrowsers are driving me crazy. my IE can upload photos but ff can't. and i didn't realize till now. So yeah pardon my this really boring piece of essay, i will post photos using my fucking ie the next time i blog.

WHICH IS PROBABLY LATER because of my fucking eye i am confined to these 4 walls and one laptop ( penis as i named it )

Are you sleepy after reading my writing. Here, watch this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jp9BSW38bXg&feature=PlayList&p=94FD83A83A4212BF&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=50

all thanks to jeric. motherfucker! night you bitches.

garden of the perverse

2009-08-30T02:25:00.000-07:00

do you see? exposed boobies !!! poor mannequin.

I just realized that my blog has been gathering a fair amount of dust.! okay. there are many reasons, NAMELY, the html coding of blogger itself is fucked up. ( ironic isn't it ) and i think due to a persistent javascript error, i am unable to upload photos. so i can only use imageshack to host the photos and THEN, manually embed the html into my blog post. ITS SO troublesome and low quality!

No one enjoys reading amber's blog when she has no photos in it :(

But anyway, time passed in a smack on the ass and after countless hair-from-downstairs, movies, weird classmates and wicked fairytales, i am proud to announce that i am pregnant!

just kidding.

okay i will fix my javascript soon. PROMISE :D

you are the sweetest of self-made wounds.

this is killing me

2009-08-16T06:11:00.001-07:00

a pool of blood
within my heart
the fault for everything
's i shouldn't have let you in

you left me to die

wtf la blogger

2009-08-09T00:43:00.000-07:00

HELLO BOYS ( copying bruno )
Its r21 ;( i can't watch it. But i wouldnt want to watch it. I DON'T wanna be 21 ;((

Wenjie is such a darling! now i can upload photos thanks to him ;D

2 really random photos :

i know i look super ugly but it's funny HAHAHA. imagine i wore that to entertain customers. everyone ends up laughing instead of buying things :(

IM WILLING TO MARRY FOR A WALK-IN CLOSET!

Don't eat at ACIA, dhouby exchange. It sucks :(

Ya the sequence of the photos pretty much have no meaning. anyway, that's BLAH to you :D
( see that ahbeng looking guy, ya that's Blah )

i look horrible without makeup.

That's like toy slavery! poor mickey mouse ( thou i hate mickeymouses ) had to walk around in circles all day carrying a super large balloon!

Tony Roma ribs and steak combo, for 33$. sharing is advised.

Drinking and some random german guy! Dad looks at the photo and says : Uh he looks married. LOL. but anyway i look pretty fat and out of shape in my jumpsuit. i was wearing NU bra!!! hehehe.

balaclava, marina square. Long island tea 20$ packs a punch, i swear.

HAHAHAHA stupid canoeing boys HAHAHAHA.

Going out with ashley is a heavy role. Like, literally, packs on the pounds. Look at the amount of food we ordered! and that was just dinner, we had 2 rounds of supper after that. ya ignore his doleful looks. its how he catches his desired C-cup girls. i guess. HAHA :D

suki sushi can be found at cineleisure lvl 4

KIERON, age: 25, status: single & available, job: works for prudential. Anyone wants to start a savings account, please contact him. Just ask me for his hp no.. HAHAHA

Kieron is never meant to be an artist. I drew the body and he..... drew the rest

guys are not really gifted

Eat your veggies, boy!

MDIS, day 1

Some random photos i took when i was in school. SCHOOL!!!! CAN YOU IMAGINE :(

after so long of bumming i suddenly need to find some PENCIL CASE, a SLINGBAG and some FOOLSCAPE paper and also GRAPH PAPER omg.

it says SAVE OUR ENVIRONMENT when all students receive one of these, GLOSSY paper somemore. what an irony.

Green apple juice

Ashley and his cup of soybean milk! I don't know, is he really 20!??! ;P

OKAY, the awaited ALAB sequel. Lo siento ( sorry ) my mouse is fucked up, i can't draw much because the images appear fuzzy. and the end results are really fugly.

I know. It's not completed. My mouse is fucked up. It causes my micro drawings to be fuzzy. and trust me its troublesome to macro everytime! Someone buy me a razor mouse and i'll continue. HAHAHA :D

But anyway just pm me your comments about it and also any suggestions or ideas.

Anyone a fan of teletubbies? Its real random BUT I HATE THEM :(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c4JoY4TkdJM

*SCREAMS AND HIDES UNDER MY SISTER'S ARMPIT.

okay no that's a worse nightmare. HAHAHA. she's gon kill me.

Anyway, movies to watch over the week:

MOVIES TO WATCH EVEN IF YOU HAVE NO MONEY OR TIME TO SPARE:

G.I JOE
MONGOL <-- only if you like history and handsome cheena people

UP IN 3D

PUBLIC ENEMIES <-- only if you like history and handsome white people

THE HANGOVER

MOVIES TO WATCH ONLY IF YOU HAVE MONEY AND TIME TO SPARE :

WHERE GOT GHOST

HAUNTING IN CONNECTICUT

HARRY POTTER

MOVIES NOT TO WATCH EVEN IF YOU HAVE A FUCK LOAD OF TIME OR MONEY :

MURDERER

OVERHEARD

So guys, hit the theatres now! its a holiday on MONDAY!!! you don't get that often. so don't stay home to watch pr0n and masturbate. GO OUT.!

LTNB - long time no blog

2009-07-26T03:57:00.000-07:00

SIRI TOLLEROD! Damn am I in love with her.

blogger has been pissing me off recently. mind you it doesn't help much especially when your head is weighing down with fever. I have a plethora of photos to post but apparently it loads too slow, that i reduced it to err.. 5 photos.

I know!!! It has been LTNB! ( long time no blog ) I've been screwing myself with work. See, I TOLD YOU, i'm not cut out for such hard labour. Maybe even my whitebloodcells found it hard to digest. ( pun intended )

YAA, WELCOME MY 7th Juicy couture bag :D It should have reached me earlier though. Never mind, my cupboard can wait.

I fell sick for like 2 weeks ever since i started working. but here i have a couple of photos.
This strange looking coffin is actually a bag. Which belongs to my boss. Ya i guess he was the only cute thing that ensured i even bothered to turn up on the last day of my work, SICK.

One of the reasons why the shop doesn't earn much :

Who in sanity will EVER, EVER, wear such cheesy outfits out?!?! Like, even wearing them to bed causes a nightmare.

I guess that was why i left as well. Too boring. But well it was a good experience.

LOL @ this :

Please shave your armpits. Lmao.

Pardon me. I feel the need to be emo for a while. This little essay is inspired by the book "Goodnight, Beautiful" which the ending.. sucked. But the use of words were powerful and very emotional. The writer used personal recount which is, probably my favorite type of writing ever.

& i always believed

that love comes in a psychic form of power. As far as my heart has ever ventured, it has been hurt, been healed, been fooled and it has manipulated and broken many others. You see, the synergies of love and loss sometimes confuses and more than often leaves oneself hurt and more empty than ever.

I looked into his eyes, many a times, when we were lying on the bed, me with one arm propped on the pillow and him lying down at the crotch of my arm. I'll fondle with his hair, and then our gaze will meet. That's probably every couple's winning moment yet all i felt was my eyes searching for something that they couldn't find.

I wonder if it was because of me, because the past hurt so much i couldn't quite seem to forgive him nor forgive myself for ever being so stupid, that i built many invisible and impenetrable walls to protect my still-healing heart. I was afraid to love him, afraid to bear the responsibilities of it all on my own.

I found it hard to map out his train of thoughts. Sometimes he wears a mask, inscrutable and unreadable. Taking in his words were a chore. I had to analyze and scrutinize each sentence and guess which ones are the truths. Most of the time, I get tired of doing so and take everything in.

He has his way of getting to me, of wanting to control me, seducing me with his promises and innocent affections. Such energy weakens me, leaving my soul bare and vulnerable. I navigate through the convoluted maze of his heart only to find a hard way in and no way out.

Till now i don't really fathom love. I wonder whether I love him. And usually, I wish I don't.

starting school in 5 days. how horrifying.

boring life

2009-07-18T23:33:00.000-07:00

hello you faggots hahahaha!

my life is so boring now!! ( because of work ) that i have nothing interesting to post about.

actually im just lazy BUT anyway,

i know la you can't wait but its very hard to draw hor! wait lazxzxz. WATCH THIS SPACE MOFOS

2009-07-12T03:00:00.000-07:00

HI GUYS! I'M OFFICIALLY SICK. can someone cook me scallop porridge :(

my hp has been battered to -10 and my mana is sucked dry by the horrible diffusalblading-retail work that i have gotten myself into. what uber shitassfuck!

Amber ( level 17 retail shop assistant ) has fallen.

BLACKMAIL (shop) has pwned Amber's head for 235 gold!

BUT ANYWAY, ALL APPLAUD, FOR THE GARLIC CHILLI SIGN AT MACDONALDS!!! :D

This is a fun shot! My exposed + fat thighs were totally unintentional.

Random shots of lovely food! See now you know why im fat. Who can resist creamy mashed potato and creamed asparagus with a juicy sirloin steak!!!

Bike ride on a rainy day!!! It gets me so wet................... and excited. HAHAHAHHA

THE MOUTH OF TRUTH is totally untruthful la, my sex drive where got so high!

THANK YOU CHRISSY for your lovely bag! Look girls! Its Samantha thavasa! exclusively from japan! can't find it in singapore ;D

HOW MUCH JUICY CAN YOU HANDLE?

My 5th and 6th jc bags!!! + purse.

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OMG IS THAT CUM!!! what the hell has ashley been up to in the toilet?!?! AT CINE SOMEMORE! O: leaving such obvious evidence!!!

ash: NO LA ITS JUST HAND SANITIZER I SWEAR!!! T.T

One degree 15!

Check out those boats. aww. and the furnishings are soo lovely.

Lincoln's DSLR + ridiculously overpriced lenses and an entire bag of them. O:

WORK AT BLACKMAIL, at FAREASTPLAZA basement >.>

I fucking swear the pay is real horrible and there were NO cute guys, you man it all alone, and its 10fucking hours of torment. ( except that the boss was hot ) there was basically nothing else. AND WAIT, it gives you a terrible fever + flu + sorethroat. I wonder if i contracted h1n1.

Outing with the guys on a random night:

Tequila sunrise for neek, long island tea for me, and some red kiddy fruit punch for enghau. okay i'm kidding. o;

SPOT THE ~~DIFFERENCE~~ ALIKENESS in the two photos!!!

enghau's expressions remains unchanged!

Well, what was that. ! Poor ashley must have freaked out to discover... he wasn't alone in the photo. omg! *screams and pours holy water on him. but i reckon even if enghau was to be a ghost everyone will just laugh when they see him. O:

UPDATE :

wenjie is fucking crazy. fucking crazy. like really fucking crazy. he just tagged at an ahlian's blog and said she look like tifa lockheart. WTF? if she does then my boobs probably look bigger than those from granado espada.

WTF WENJIE. you are fucking screwed.

off to scoff down on teddybear biscuits and literally kill my throat- bye guys.

tissue auntie is fucking rich

2009-07-06T13:13:00.001-07:00

Did take me some effort to draw it. hope you guys like it.!! ;D

harrrru harrrru

2009-07-05T08:33:00.001-07:00

GUYS, watch this : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=duu3FReQ9HA

olvidar el amor, olvidar el dolor!!!!
emo time is good time, babeh.

i'll be updating a major post in 3 days, before my WORK STARTS OMGOMGOMGM

AMBER, WORKING?!?!?! at some crappy 5 dollars an hour job?! OMG fuck me. that's so cool!
is the moon blue?! O:

Okay see you around, haruharu

omg i fucking love you

2009-06-30T06:49:00.001-07:00

will you ever tell someone you love him if you dont mean it?

WHY THE FUCK MUST WE DRAG AND RESIZE THE PICS AT BLOGGER?
this is fucking stupid. HELLO GUYS, i know you miss me la! see my sec 2 photo got puke anot? HAHAHAHHAA.

anyway, i can't get to sleep. so i reckon it's cool to post some random musing that i thought of :

SO GIRLS, ( and guys, read it and fucking squeeze them into your dick of a brain ) don't we all need a man who:

♥ remembers when your period comes and brings you a hot bottle and chocolates

♥ brings you plasters when you've been wearing heels all day

♥ knows what you want to eat before you say it

♥ sneaks up on you to hug you from the back whilst you're washing the dishes

♥ kisses you on your forehead

♥ turns up with supper at your door on a rainy night

♥ surprises you with breakfast in bed ( i wouldn't even mind if its burnt )

♥ says nothing but let you cry in his arms when you quarrel with a girlfriend

♥ look at you in the eyes and they say " i love you "

♥ plays you a song on the guitar ( i swear i won't laugh if its horrible )

♥ make love and fall asleep holding your head to his chest

♥ slip a packet of your favorite sweets into your bag before you leave for school

♥ drops you post-its that says " oh god i miss you "

♥ bought you a dress when he's out with his mates and he says " you'll look so beautiful in this "

♥ doesn't loses his cool when you beat him in a game

♥ stays beside you watching you study- all day. ( that's real boring but i like it )

♥ get you that something at the shop which he caught you gazing at, VIA MAIL. ( this is classic )

♥ kisses you on your hand

♥ slips 50 into your wallet before you head out to meet your girlfriends ( actually i felt like typing 1000. HAHAHAH )

♥ blushes when you look at him adoringly.

♥ and so much more, it may even help me fall asleep typing them out.

girls, anything else to add? HAHAHA.

OMFG NOW THE AHLIANS EVOLVE ALREADY!
they use iphones and set up blogshops. and plays games on facebook!! *screams. this is scaring the shit out of me.

this is cool shit, baby. watch it at GOLDEN VILLAGE with a purchase of at least 3 tickets and you get a limited edition squirrel plush toy. :)

Lol see my grandmother. uber cute right.

anyone fancy some rat pie? :) okay this is gross if you keep staring at the photo lolol.

i swear to god, i am fucking fat. but still my breasts are stuck at ACUP. this is tragic.

i know, my lipstick color damn chiozxz

remember your mask when you go out!!! bye you bitches.

2009-06-26T04:55:00.000-07:00

are you guys bored? laugh at this photo!! that's me when i was.. in sec 2.